Broken Heart

Is it really hard to sleep at night with broken heart?
Is this the real broken heart?
When I said I still could eat with broken heart, now I never ask where's my breakfast?
In my lunch, I could only see at the bunch of mixed feelings at my plate, do I really have this broken heart?
I couldn't even stand for my dinner, I feel so much sleepy and when I close my eyes I see you with her kissing, loving, under control.
I feel you with broken heart.
Is this the real broken heart?
All the sleeps I have already made just invite me to deeply feel this broken heart.
Even though my open eyes works for my brain to never enough think of you at the day.
The day you lied.
And said "I will prove that this is the last fault I ever made, I will show it off for you. Believe me, or at least be with me and try to learn to believe in me from the start"
I am paralysed.